I have sympathy for his loved ones to some degree, in the same way I have sympathy for the family of people who commit horrible crimes and then have to see their family member taken away and locked up for life.
Im sure he had redeeming qualities to them, but to society he was not a net positive.
Its not that I’m comparing myself to “Perfect” truth is Ive lost 35kg in 2 years, I’m super happy with my progress but I know why I dont look the way I’d like. Im a middle aged man, I dont recover like a 20yo, I have less HGH and test than a 20yo I dont get enough sleep, I have a demanding job and kids… Theres only so many hours in the day, I can only recover so fast, I can only diet and train so hard. For a while it really began to mess with my head.
I’m just saying that people can take exercise and improving themselves to an unhealthy place too. “Treat yoself” isnt a lifestyle, its wallowing in easy dopamine, but a life of depriving yourself of everything that makes you happy and constantly hammering yourself physically is just not sustainable and it can take you places mentally that are just as unhealthy.